Ruzie

by Gene
(Illinois)

Ruzie went "home" on Monday, April 28th at 5:30 p.m. My wife, granddaughter and I were with Ruzie till she went home. We all held her while I looked into her eyes, rubbed her head and thanked her for the years of memories and happiness. We all told her we loved her and when the Vet administered the injection that stopped her heart and looked at us while nodding his head - he said her heart has stopped. We all cried uncontrollably while I continued to look into her eyes - feeling that it was the least I could do - endure the emotional pain of losing her and watching her go home - to the final breath.

I've never in my entire life experienced such heavy emotion and continue to go through the stages of grief. I may be in the depression phase - not sure. In any event, things of hers, routines that occur that no longer involve Ruzie - they all break my heart.

She was a wonderful friend, companion, and family member. There's a silence - a void in the house - and in our hearts that ache so much for her absence.

Ruzie - a beautiful Papillon December 13th, 1996 - April 28th, 2014

Her ashes will be in an urn with her picture on the outside so that we can, somewhat, feel that her spirit is still with us.

A loss that I cannot adequately describe - with raw emotions and the stirring up of all kinds of emotions and memories.

Gene & family of Ruzie