Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Dea & Samantha'

Samantha

Feb 18, 2013

To my sweet Sammy Wammy,

Well my love, it has been 143 days that you have been gone. It totally sucks being without you. I hate the new me: the me without you. I am so much more worse after knowing & loving you, then losing you ~ than I was before knowing & loving, then losing you. I know deep down in my heart that I don't mean this but ~ sometimes I wonder if I would have been better off not knowing you at all...

Having you and your love ripped away from me so suddenly, without warning and with such a short amount of time to love you. How I have survived 143 days, how I am able to some what function, how I am still breathing, how I manage to get out of bed every morning without you, I couldn't begin to tell you.

I just want my kitten back! I just want my kitten back! I just want my Sammy back!

“(Without You) What Do I do With Me


What do I do,
Now that I’m on my own?
What we did together
Beats anything I’ve done alone.
Since the day that you left,
I’ve been asking myself,
Is this how it’s gonna be?
Without you,
What do I do with me?

I don’t want to go out,
But I just can’t stay home.
I don’t need company,
But I sure don’t want to be alone.
And to tell myself that I’m doin’ well,
Is only makin’ believe,
Without you,
What do I do with me?

Without you,
Where do i go?
where do I turn?
I’d sure like to know.
What do I do,
With all of our plans?
And how do I spend
All this time on my hands?

I’ve tried everything,
I’ve been rackin’ my brain,
It must be as bad as it seems.
Without you,
What do I do with me?

Without you,
What do I do with me?"

(Tanya Tucker)



Every sad song like this one used to have a human face attached but ever since I lost you, the face has been replaced by yours. I miss you, I love you, I don't want to live without you my angel...

I just want my cat back! I just want my cat back! I just want my Sammy back, please!


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