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'My Beautiful Diana'

by Lisa Thomas
(Las Vegas, NV USA)

It was October 5th 2012 my boyfriend and I were on our way to the store. It was around 7:30 pm we had just gotten to the carport when I heard a kitten crying under a car.

Well after about 10 mins I got her to come out and come to me. She was all dirty and was so skinny I took her back to our apartment. But at first I didn't want to take her inside because I had 3 dogs that had never been around cats before.

Anyway I got a can of tuna fish and gave it to her on the stairs right outside my door. She ate it like she hadn't eaten in weeks. So I gave her a second can. After she ate both of them I took her inside to my room. She right away snuggled on my pillow and went to sleep. She slept there all night and in the morning she was playing and having a ball so I knew then she was staying. So one by one I let my dogs meet her and they all got along great.

I had promised her that she would never be alone again and that I would always be here for her but in the early morning hours of March 22 2013 my whole world stopped. My daughter and her boyfriend were going across the street to McDonalds but within a matter of minutes they were back and my daughter was crying and she told me she thinks Diana was laying dead in the street. I couldn't believe it. I started to beg God not to let it be her. I grabbed my shoes and ran outside and when I got to the street I saw her laying there all alone. I ran crying and scooped her up into my arms. All I could think about was I failed her, I promised her she would never be alone and that I would always be there for her and I wasn't, she died all alone in the middle of the street.

Someone ran her over and just left her there to die alone, I just sat there in the kitchen holding her still warm body wondering how and why she was out there that far from home. Then I remembered about 45 mins earlier my BF went to the corner store and when I asked him if Diana had followed him he said now that he thinks of it he thought he saw her behind him but when he thought he saw her someone else was walking in the other direction so I think she got confused and started following that other guy thinking it was my BF. That's the only reason she would of went that way.

I have not to this day been able to forgive myself for not being there for her and I think I have never really forgiving my BF for not stopping and bringing her back home when he saw her.

Diana was the most beautiful Calico cat you have ever seen. I promised her a life where she would always be loved and never would she be alone and I wasn't there for her and for that I will never ever forgive myself for. It's been 4 yrs now and the pain is just as strong as it was the day she died I love you my Beautiful Diana and I always will. I hope you found Rufus and you two are playing and having a grand ol time. I send you all my love.

Your Mommy forever xoxoxo

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