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'Benji & Cinnamon'
About Cinnamon
Cinnamon was a beautiful Shetland sheepdog mix. She was yellow in color with some merle markings on her face and ears. Cinnamon was a very sweet dog. She loved everyone and was always excited to meet new people. She was very intelligent, too.
When did you lose Cinnamon?
Cinnamon passed away on January 29th, 2011. Her death was so sudden, that it's shook everyone up. When we got home that day, she was already almost gone and in shock. Moving her would have put her in greater shock. We did the best we could to make her last minutes on Earth comfortable, though.
At which stage of pet loss grief do you feel you are currently at?
Currently, I am somewhere between denial and anger. There are sometimes when I just feel so numb and unsure of what happened. I'll stop and look for her, wondering where she went. Then, there are others, where I just feel so angry.
Benji and Cinnamon's Story so far
We brought Cinnamon home as a very tiny puppy and raised her as best as we knew how. Cinnamon grew into a beautiful dog and though she was always my dog before anyone else's, she was still the perfect family dog. She saw me grow from a spoiled teenager into the adult that I am today and I saw her grow from a sweet puppy into an even sweeter dog.
We're not completely sure how Cinnamon got sick, but we do have an idea. I pray that our idea isn't true, because we searched our house high and low and found nothing she could have gotten into inside. I can't imagine anyone hateful enough to take my best friend from me. Cinnamon passed away beside me. Her heart failed, and she was gone. Daily life so far has been hard. I've had trouble getting back into the swing of things, but I'm trying, because I know that's what my Moo Moo would want.
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One Last TimeMay 21, 2012
It's been a long time since I've updated this diary. I suppose life really does go on, doesn't it? After you left, everything seemed surreal. You were …
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The Empty HolidaysDec 27, 2011
My first Christmas without you. It wasn't easy. In my search for stockings for the dogs, the cat, and the rodents (more on them in a minute), I came across …
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AcceptanceSep 24, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I think this stage is called acceptance. It still hurts sometimes and I still cry for you sometimes but now, sometimes, late at night …
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SweeneyAug 27, 2011
Cinnamon, seven months ago (almost to the date) you left this world quite abruptly. I was shaken up. No one had expected it. We thought you had more time, …
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The Sister's New PomeranianJuly 25, 2011
My sister has a Pomeranian now, Cinnamon. He is by no means my dog, and he doesn't live here, but I puppy sit for him every now and again. He's this little …
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The Hole You LeftJune 22, 2011
Dear Cinnamon,
I thought about you again today. I've been thinking about you a lot this past week. I keep wondering if this feeling that something is …
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I Miss YouMay 24, 2011
I miss the way you used to tease me with your toys.
The way you'd gather your favorite squeaker from your basket, run to me as if you wanted to play, …
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GraduationMay 14, 2011
I did it, Cinnamon. I graduated. As I walked across that stage, I remembered how I decided to go back to school for my dogs. I wanted to give you so much …
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Too CleanMay 6, 2011
The carpet is too clean. When you were here with us, we had to clean the floors once a week. It didn't matter how often we brushed and bathed you, the …
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A New StageApril 29, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I know I just wrote an entry for this diary a few days ago, but I feel as if writing again might help me. I'm not sure, though. Things …
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Happy EasterApril 26, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I set up a memorial website for you yesterday. It was hard to do, and I shed a lot of tears while doing it, but it truly helped me. …
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Still Thinking of YouApril 20, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I know it seems cliché asking this, but does it ever get easier? I admit, for a while there, I was trying to hold the pain in. I wanted …
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Getting ByMar 23, 2011
It's been a while since I've updated, but life has been hectic. Still, even through the hustle and bustle of life, I have been thinking of you, Cinnamon. …
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The Pain Thunder BringsMar 1, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
We had our first thunderstorm today since you left our lives. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard. I hadn't cried in a few days, …
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The Grieving Still Goes On...Feb 22, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I've still been thinking about you a lot. We had to take Lilo to the vet today and when we got there, it was hard. They ask about …
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Hard DaysFeb 10, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
Today was a hard one. I'm not even sure which stage of grieving I'm in any more. Some days, I just feel so numb. And others... I just …
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My AngelFeb 7, 2011
Dearest Cinnamon,
I will never forget that look in your eyes every time you met someone knew or came across something you'd never seen before. You …
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