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'Pat & Blue', Canada
About Blue
My beloved dog's name was Blue and he was a beautiful Siberian Husky with beautiful blue eyes. His markings were mostly white with a black mask over his eyes and black down his back.
When did you lose Blue?
Blue passed on September 8, 2009 at 3:58 pm. He was 15 years and 9 months old.
At which stage of pet loss grief do you feel you are currently at?
Sadness and depression.
Pat and Blue's Story so far
Yesterday I went to the cottage for the first time since Blue passed. We were there for the long weekend and Blue was in good spirits on the Friday. He seemed glad to be there and was glad to see his friend Karmy there. He had a very good night on Friday - he slept through the night probably because of all the exercise he had that day.
But on Saturday I knew he was tired so I stayed most of the day outside in the sun watching him. Sometimes he would lay down and then couldn't get up on his own so I would keep an eye on him and go a help him get up. That night Blue did not do well. I could tell that he was in some discomfort and gave him some Medacam but he did not have a good night. I took him home on Monday and made him comfortable and stayed with him.
On Tuesday I knew what I had to do and with tears in my eyes and extreme sadness in my heart I told Blue that I was going to let him go that day. It was extremely hard to make the ultimate decision when we went to the vets because Blue seemed so up and ready to go but my family and vet told me that it was Blue's time and that I should let him go. That was the most difficult decision I have ever made in my life.
The vet gave me the first injection which make Blue go to sleep. I stroked him, scratched his ears and told him I loved him over and over again until he was deep in sleep. I could not watch as the final injection was made but was with him right after that. He passed quickly without making a sound. I can still see his face - so beautiful and peaceful. No more pain and suffering. But my heart was broken.
I miss him terribly and try each day to believe that what I did was best for Blue and that he is now running in the fields in heaven. I keep going each day by knowing that some day I will see him again.
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'Pat & Blue'
Thinking of YouOct 28, 2013
Blue I look at your picture every day. You are my screen saver. I see you every day at home throughout the house. I reminisce with Jim and Katie and …
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'Thinking About You BlueMay 15, 2013
Hi Blue -
I have been thinking about you more for the last few days. I was out at the cottage and was remembering how you loved to be there and how …
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Thinking of You TodayDec 20, 2012
Blue I still really miss you. I have pictures of you all over the house so I feel as if you are always with me. I talk about you often and have fond …
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3 Years LaterSept 8, 2012
I have been thinking about you Blue for the last few days. I have written in our diary about how I miss you. I think and talk about you often and I very …
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Three Years AgoSept 4, 2012
Blue as I look at your picture on my computer screen I remember the day you went to the bridge. It was the saddest day in my life. I hated to let you …
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Memories of BlueMarch 27, 2012
Blue - I see you everyday. I have your picture in the bedroom, living room and spare room. I still miss you but now the hurt has turned to fond memories …
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My Boy BlueAug 5, 2011
It's been a little less than two years since you left me for a better place. I still miss you very much and I am still finding your fur all over the place. …
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Another Day and Another MemoryFeb 24, 2011
Blue,
I haven't written in my diary since December Blue but that's not to say I haven't been thinking about you. I found another piece of your hair …
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Christmas EveDec 24, 2010
Here it is Christmas Eve and I am feeling really emotional because I miss my Blue very much. He is still very much part of my life through memories. …
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BlueNov 3, 2010
It's 7:30 pm here and I was looking out into the darkness of the backyard when the solar light flashed in the darkness about 6 times. I'm sure it was …
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My Boy BlueNov 2, 2010
I haven't written for awhile but I have been thinking about my Blue every day. His picture sits on my desk and on my computers and on the wall at home. …
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One Year Ago7 Sept, 2010
It has been one year since you went on to a better place Blue. Since that date you have let me know that you are doing fine. I love it when you come …
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I Will Always Love and Miss You Blue!Aug 26, 2010
Yesterday I was sitting at my desk thinking about you Blue and thinking that it's almost a year ago that I let you go. I am still feeling down and lonesome …
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You Came to Let Me Know That You Were HappyJul 12, 2010
Well Blue I now am absolutely sure that you are at the bridge. When I found the paw print on the wall over my bed right above my pillow - I knew it was …
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Blue - Your Memories Are With Me Every DayMay 17, 2010
Well Bubby - it's been 8 months and 9 days since you went to the Bridge. I think of you every day. The pain is not gone but has become softer and my …
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BlueJan 8, 2010
Last night I had what I thought was a strange dream but today when I think about it I don't know if it was a dream or not. I thing I awoke very early …
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BlueJan 4, 2010
Blue it was a Christmas that was full of memories of the past 15 Christmases with you and our family. I missed watching you ripping open your presents …
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14 Weeks Today and I Miss You Very Much BlueDec 8, 2009
Well Blue it's been 14 weeks today and I miss you very much. I found more of your fur yesterday and it brought tears to my eyes. I wish you were here. …
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Christmas Without You BlueNov 29, 2009
Christmas is coming quickly and I can't imagine it without you Blue. I looked forward to you opening your gifts by ripping the paper to shreds to find …
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Ten Weeks TomorrowNov 9, 2009
True love never dies it just turns into beautiful memories.
Ten weeks tomorrow and it still seems like yesterday that I lost you Blue.
Love you. …
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You Touched Me Again TodayNov 9, 2009
I came home tonight and had supper. Then decided to do some cleaning in the bedroom. There it was - on the dresser - a bottle of Rescue Remedy Spray. …
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'Pat & Blue'Nov 5, 2009
Boy this has been some week. Every day I have had some sign of you being here. Today I was looking for some work pictures and came across a really beautiful …
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'Pat and Blue'
8 Weeks TodayNov 3, 2009
It has been 8 weeks today that I lost you and I miss your beautiful face and your crazy antics. On Saturday I woke up and went into the kitchen as usual …
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Missing BlueOct 21 2009
Today was not a good day for me. I got up and started my day as usual and then it hit me. The tears and the empty feeling came. I remembered the day …
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'Pat & Blue'
Six WeeksOct 20, 2009
It will be six weeks tomorrow since my Blue passed. I still ache when I think about him sometimes and still cry but not as often. I mostly remember all …
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What Happens NextOct 13, 2009
Today is October 13 and I have just been thinking about Blue and what I could have done better to make the last years of his life more meaningful. I could …
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My Beautiful BlueOct 7, 2009
I would like everyone to be able to see Blue's beautiful face.
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One Month TodayOct 7, 2009
Four short weeks ago Blue went to Heaven. I still cannot accept the fact that he is gone from this world. I take his picture with me around the house …
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