I cried myself to sleep last night. Tonight is my last night with her :'( I don't want to do this again! Not after Midnight! Tomorrow we put her down. I insisted on being there, I must be the last she sees, supporting her through everything comforting her, no matter how much it hurts me.
I have been crying for hours now and I know I am going to cry myself to sleep again tonight. I hate this. Today in school I cried, I have gone into depression. I am lifeless, dull and depressed :( I hate this!