Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Billie & Be' Be'

Still Sad And Angry.... Blaming Myself Too

March 16, 2012

by Billie - Be' Be's Mom
(Falls Church Virginia)

Very sad today - I can't stop playing her euthanasia over and over in my head! I am miserable. I am angry because she did not deserve this cancer that she got in her ear... and all over her head, throat and chest!!!

Sometimes I feel like I could have done more for her... like cleaned her ears more so she would not get ear infections and scratch like crazy! She absolutely hated me touching her ears though :(

I seem to be angry and fed up with just about everything. Frustrated!

Waves of sadness come over and over again.

Why can I not be happy that she is not in pain anymore and she is in a better place?