Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Hilary & Suzy'

One Month

August 3, 2009

by Hilary

It's been one month since I've lost Suzy. It still feels like yesterday.

I swear I catch her out of the corner of my eye... maybe if I look quick enough I can see her...

It's just so hard.... It's hard for me to let go and move on... I don't know how to do it.

Sybil is really, really clingy... She won't leave my side when I'm home... I think she's very lonely during the day, and by the time I come home, she's just so overwhelmed by being alone that she won't leave me alone... Not that I mind, but I really feel for her.. She's suffered a loss as well.. Her companion is no longer there and it hurts her just as much as it hurts me...

She's not crying in the night anymore, but still, I know that she's feeling Suzy's loss as well....

I wish there was something I can do. I know that eventually I'll have to get another cat to keep her company, but I don't know when I'll even be able to get to that point... I know I need to do this for Sybil, but I don't want to rush into anything right now.

I feel like she should become accustomed to being alone, but I know it hurts....

I'm lost.... totally lost.... I wish I could bring Suzy back... I'd do anything to do that....

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