Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Jennifer & Sugar'

Salty Tears and a Few Regrets, but Smiles, Finally

April 13, 2011

by Jennifer
(Maryland)

Sugar, today was a little bit easier. I hope it was for you too. It has only been one day since you were gone. I said into the wind tonight that I let you go not because I didn't love you, but because I loved you too much to see you suffer anymore, and I loved you too much to force you to stay here when it was clear you were too ill, and too unhappy more often than not as the weeks passed. Our home feels very empty without you, but when I speak out loud to you, you come rushing back.

One thing I thought of is that I regret not keeping your litter as clean every day as I should have, or sometimes staying away too long for more hours than I should have. I'm kicking myself for that. I'm sure you don't even remember.

I was able to talk to some girlfriends tonight, and both send you all their loving to you. They are both big kitty cat lovers. You met Aunt Joanne and she loves you very much.

I know for sure, that if you were able to talk, you would have told me it was ok for me to let you go, that you would have wanted me to be free, too. Because you probably believe too that I am ready to start with getting many things in my life back on track now that we are free of our burdens. That I need to be ready to be away from home more often to be with more friends, and do the things I've not been able to do.

You were my true Angel on Earth, and now you're my Angel in Heaven. I'm so incredibly grateful to God that you were placed in my life,and now you are placed eternally in my heart. I love you so much, and will always love you as strongly and as deeply forever and ever as I do right now.
Do not ever forget that.

Stay furry and sweet and make sure you chase some birdies and eat some organic heavenly grass. Please go find our other two kitties Prissy and Putter when you get a chance. I know they would love to meet you.

Til tomorrow, or maybe the next,

Love you Kitty,

Your Mommy.

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