Your Pet Loss Diaries

January 28, 2011

by Jenny Pastrano
(San Antonio,Tx)

Yesterday marked the one week mark without you. It came fast even though each day was so long... Yesterday was such a good day... work was good and then we went out to eat in celebration of your life. The restaurant staff was so nice and attentive.. more than usual... I received a sympathy card from the vet... the best vet I've ever had... everything just seemed to fall into place.

For lunch I went to Hobby Lobby and found some really pretty paper to add more pages to Nikki's scrapbook and best of all.... I had a dream... I dreamt I had Nikki in my arms and I put her down... my cousin said... she's so cute - as most people would say... and then I said to myself in the dream... Oh my god... I'm dreaming.. I'm in a dream... and I picked her back up and hugged and kissed her and told her how much I loved her.. then I woke up... it was comforting to hold her again.

I haven't forgiven the other dogs yet... but I feel in my heart that maybe one day I can.. maybe...

Oh Nikki.. I miss you so much and life just isn't the same without you... everywhere I turn... it reminds me of you... I take a picture of you to work and keep it in my pocket just to have you near.. your daddy misses you too... I never realized how much of an impact you had on him until now.. I hope you know how much he loved you... I hope you're with Blanca and Chuckie and maybe you can even find Penny where you're at.

I will never forget you... ever... and I will never have another doggie like you...

I love you baby.