Your Pet Loss Diaries

Jul 18, 2010

by Meg Loftheim
(Lakeland, FL)

KC, I haven't written here for a little while but I have written in my other diary. We missed you so much at the mountains. The cabin was quiet, it was fun but lonely. We kept thinking you were running up or down the stairs. You were with us in spirit and your remains came along for the ride. I couldn't leave you alone in the house in Lakeland, while there may have been strangers walking through the house.

KC, we just are so lost without you. When driving, I look in the back seat to see what you are doing. You are not there and the tears start. I am driving your dad crazy as I always talked nonstop to you and you never seemed to bother. Dad just tunes me out. I told him you always listened. I need your help in keeping him focused. But that isn't going to happen is it KC. I try to put everything into perspective. I begged you to die at home in my arms and you did just that.

You were so loved. Oh my, you were so loved. I just don't think I can go on without seeing your little face. I know I will, but it has only been two months. I guess it is not time enough. I still want to take care of you. I know you have sent signs that you are okay. I just don't want to see them. Have you found Harley yet. I am sure he needs a friend too. Take care of him.

I miss you and will love you until we meet again. (I still sleep with your blanket even though I think your smell is going.)

Hugs little one. I miss you but I know you are well and happy again.

Love,

Mom