Your Pet Loss Diaries

Nov 1, 2009

by Sharran
(Melbourne, Australia)

It's the loneliest birthday I have ever had!! If I could have one wish for the rest of my life.. It would be to have you back! I dread today.. I want nothing else but to hold you.. and kiss you.. and watch you running and rolling around and making me laugh with your bunny jumps. You were my Angel.. my companion and my Therapy.. my 'Happy Pill'!!!

I received flowers this morning from Grandpa (who couldn't be with me either as he couldnt get time off) and he signed the card with your name on it too. I was surprised but so very happy to see that he included your name as he knows that I'm missing you so much more today. You are a member of our family.

I'm dreading Monday, I'll be going to meet with the head of the Animal Emergency Clinic, ALONE, to find out and have closure of what happened that day. I don't know if it's going to help me or make it worse. Grandpa was suppose to be here but he's not. I know that I have to do this.

It's been 2 months, Baby Boi..

I remember.. laying down at night and Thanking God and expressing Gratitude every night for having you in my life. You were a Gift from God. I was so grateful for you, my darling baby.

I still have your little bowl with corn flakes in it. I know that's crazy but I'm desperately trying to keep you alive. I talk to you like you were here, I know that you can hear me in Bunny Heaven. I look at your videos and pictures and I keep wishing that you were with me so that I could tell you how much I love you.

....I am not ready to let you go, Baby Boi....

I love you Thumper.. always & forever.

xoxoxo
Grandma