I really identify with your post, and I'm originally from Fruitport so that grabbed my attention as well. I got my siamese cat Jenga as a kitten for my 15th birthday. I had to make the decision to let him go this past Sunday, and it was the most difficult moment of my life.
Jenga had hind quarter pain and loss of control as well as incontinence, just like Abby. Little by little he faded away. He was such a fighter and he wanted to stay here for me- but something told me I couldn't let him. I am empty, just like you. My home's silence is deafening. I am still in shock and just can't wrap my head around the fact that he won't be coming back.
I will say a prayer for you and just know, I'm right here with you.
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