by Tracie D. Rhamy
(Oklahoma)
Our Mollie D
She waited for me to say good-bye, she let me whisper I Love You one last time, she took my breath away as she took her last. My baby died in my arms this morning allowing me to be with her until the very end. I could only hold her tight, tell her how very loved she is and kiss her over and over again.
My name is Tracie, my daughter is Mollie Dawn. She is a beautiful black and white cocker with a funny little duck pattern on her behind. Mollie is 13 and 1/2 years old and the love of our lives.
My husband and I have been married 14 and 1/2 years and I can't remember when it was ever not the 3 of us. When we became truck drivers our fearless wonder hit the open road too. she definately picked up the foul laungage and unexceptable intolorance as her road souvienier.
She came home to rest and stay with my mom. I was so afraid that the weather and long rides were just not what she needed anymore, and yet I needed to be with her. We are sitting in Dallas Texas planning to head home to oklahoma to pick her up.
Last night I recieved the call, that dreaded damn call!!! She's not doing well, it just seemed to creep up. Mom say's it's best to come home. We got there just in time to see a very tired baby lift her head in recognition and collapse into my arms as I reach out to her. I think I said all the right things, I think I kissed her enough to let her know how very much I love her and that it's ok.
On the way to the hospital, my husband driving. Our daughter left this world cradled in my arms. I can only hold my head in hand at this point and thank her for every unselfish thing she did for me. I will endure 1 thousand sorrows to have her smile and laugh, it was all the while our journey together and I am blessed to have taken the ride.
I am hurting beyond words, I am greedy beyond needs, and I am who I am because she loved me.
I give this story to you as a release? Maybe. As a way to move on? No, I plan on sitting in this moment for quite some time. I share because it's the least I can do, for she gave me the world wrapped in paw prints, this adventure is my Mollie.... Our Mollie D.