Your Pet Loss Stories

'My Darling Toffy'

by Carol
(Lancashire, England)

My baby was 10 years old she got ill so suddenly. The vets did lots of tests but they found a tumour and there was nothing they could do for her but to put her to sleep.

It was the hardest thing we had to do. I held her in my arms while they gave her the injection me and my husband was telling her how much we loved her. I felt her little body go heavy I held her for a while then took her home because it happened so suddenly we didn't know what to do with her body.

My husband was going to bury her in the garden but as we will be moving next year I didnt want to leave her behind so we decided to have her cremated. I have her in a box at the moment but I am trying to find a teddybear that reminds me of her so I can put her ashes into it so I can still cuddle her.

I miss her so much it's been weeks, I cry every day and don't think I will ever stop crying. I have another dog so I try to be strong for his sake as I know he misses her too. I hate going for walks now but still have to for my boys sake but it just isn't the same.

She was such a good girl and I dont think I will ever get over this sadness and pain that I feel. I am crying now as I write this and asking why, I love and miss her so much.