Your Pet Loss Diaries

'Hilary & Suzy'

Regressing

July 28, 2009

by Hilary

I feel like I just can't move forward.

I sit here and think all day long, and there's no relief from my thoughts.

I've started using my diary, but it just seems like nothing is helping. I cannot believe how deep my grief goes..... It just feels like this sharp pain is going to be never ending.

I can't help myself but think that maybe, just maybe, if I had kept up with the vaccinations then Suzy would still be around. Or maybe she wouldn't... I don't know, and it kills me to even think that way because I know how unhealthy this is.....

I just don't know what to do anymore.... Small things seem to bring me comfort, and I know that only time if going to tell, but it's just KILLING me....

I'm drowning....


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Regressing

July 28, 2009


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Hang in there Hilary
by: Ozreal

I'm a true beliver in "things happen for a reason"
and little Suzy was needed somewhere else, please believe that Love. God's timing is impeccable, so keep the faith. And we are all here as a Family to get each other through this. Death is final for only the Living yet Suzy's Spirit will always remain in your heart and Soul.

With Love and Peace
Ozreal
Shalom
So Sorry
by: Karen

Dear Hilary

I'm so sorry to hear about Suzy. Please remember it is very early days though and you shouldn't expect too much of yourself. We all feel guilty, however we lose our pet and whatever we did or didn't do, it's just a part of grief we have to go through.

You spent over ten years together so why should you or would you be feeling better already? That would only mean she didn't mean as much to you as she obviously did and still does.

So don't think of it as regressing, just think if it as working your way through to the other side, often it isnt clear cut and there is no straight path to follow. You can think you are feeling better and then be hit by it again when something reminds you, and you can think to yourself that you're getting nowhere, but you are.

Feeling it is the biggest part of working through it, and you will get through it.

Best Wishes

Karen

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