Your Pet Loss Diaries

Aug 2, 2010

by Patti
(Rochester, NY USA)

I just finished the ceremony for Bailey. I had a hard time reading the dialogue because I was crying so hard. I've been sobbing literally for days. I feel like I'm in the pit of hell. I honestly don't know how much longer I can take this. I don't understand how a dog who had so much love could have gotten sick in the first place. I honestly thought that with all the love he got it would keep him healthy for a really long time. God saw fit to take him at the midpoint of his life. I feel cheated, it's not fair. I can't believe I can't hug him.

I wish I never had to go to bed so that I wouldn't have to go through the heart wrenching task of waking up. Waking up without him is the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm up and he's nowhere to be found, the silence in the house is deafening. I don't want to eat because he's not here to lick the plate. He was the best, cutest, smartest, funniest, most lovable baby in the world. I can't believe he's gone, I'd give anything to have him back. I feel like I can't live without him. I've never felt more alone in my life, never...