Things are just not going to be the same without my baby. I got my cremation necklace in the mail and filled it with hair I pulled out of his hair brush. I still am unable to pick his toys up except to vacuum. I still sleep with his blanket. His ashes are not in the urn yet, as it has to be sealed. That feels final and I guess I just can't yet.
A friend of mine noticed that I was doing better, but he still thinks that it's weird I carry a cat toy in my purse. Just my way of keeping Normie close to me I guess.