Sasha is a 10 year old beautiful Samoyed. She has had a rough time with illnesses but my Mum and Dad have cared for her like a child, she has been given so much love by her family she is the most loving dog imaginable.
When may you/did you lose Sasha?
Sasha is in the Vets on a drip as I write this, it's 4.30am on Monday the 1st of December and I can't describe how I feel, tomorrow may be the end and I'm finding it very hard to deal with, it's helpful to write it down.
At which stage of pet loss grief do you feel you are currently at?
The 1st stage, it's the not knowing when she will go that's killing me!
Sasha & Cathy's Story so far
Sasha, our beautiful big fluffy happy dog, arrived at our house 10 years ago as a cute, playful and mischievious puppy. We have always had dogs and Sasha was so different from the start!
Buster, our little pomeranian, got on with her like a house on fire and they are real good mates. They are like Tom and Jerry both funny as anything. Sasha, Buster and my Mum and Dad had many brilliant caravaning holidays together all over England. Mum and Dad then bought a static caravan in a wee seaside town called Ballywalter and Sasha loved it. Out walking along the beach, swimming, chasing plastic bottles was her favorite past time along with eating!
A few years went by and she started to get sick, her hips were bad, I remember her in plaster a couple of times and she just made us roar with laughter at her antics! Then Sasha was diagnosed Diabetic, Mum and Dad have been injecting the poor wee soul for years now and watching her diet, teeth and eyesight. They have truly been fantastic with her.
About 3 weeks ago Sasha got a bit of a cough, which we were told was a strain of Kennel Cough, she started treatment, then Buster the pom also got it! Slowly she got worse and was either in the vets or the vets came to Mum and Dads house too see her.
Last Tuesday Sasha got really sick, she wasn't eating, which for a diabetic is a nightmare, my poor Mum gave her water from a syringe because she wasn't drinking either. The vet was called again and this time it was decided she should be admitted to the vets for tests.
On Friday morning things took a turn for the worse when the vet told us she had gone into renal failure after an undetected kidney infection also heart failure, my heart sank when I heard this, my Mum and Dad were devastated as were my brother and I. We got regular updates from the vets who said her condition hadn't gotten any worse but no better, the uncertainty of things is melting my head, I cant stop thinking about her being in the vets by herself.
Today is Monday the 1st of December and we are trying to get on with things putting the Christmas Trees up etc... but speaking to my Mum on the phone she says its not the same without Sasha lying in front of her stretched out like the picture of happiness she always is, I described what we are going through as a living death, we all know it's just a matter of maybe hours but its not making things any easier and closure is miles away!
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