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'My Guilt'

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You are not alone
by: Anonymous

Dear Molly,

Just want to let you know you are not alone feeling like this, asking yourself many questions about your pet.
my pet passed away yesterday. I am still in a shock state as he was perfectly fine. He showed no symptoms whatsoever before he went to sleep. he was eating and drinking normal. However, after he got up, he start acting all funny, wobbling, vomiting and diarrhea. I realized something was not right so I rushed him to the hospital.

Only there they told me he is in critical condition and he's going to stay overnight to get treatment and run full blood test. So I left him without saying good bye not knowing this would be the last time seeing him.

12 hours later, I got a phone call from the vet saying they need to put to sleep cause he's suffering and there is no hope for recovery as his kidneys were failing... this was the worst thing I have ever done. Agreeing to end his life without being able to see him and be there for him. But consent had to be given over the phone to end his misery.

It is a terrible feeling. I keep asking myself if he was looking for me? and if he was all calm since I wasn't there for him.

I will never be able to forgive myself. My beloved cat (Toffee) had no family around him.
Don't feel guilty
by: Sunshine's 'Grammi'

There are times when we cannot be with our pets at the end. It is very difficult to be the one to make that decision. I have had to do it many times as my pets age, and become not well. I hate it and want the floor to open and swallow me up before I utter those words, but when I look into their eyes and see their pain ... I don't get a choice but to say o.k. we have to say goodbye. My daughter was at a church group the night we said goodbye to Sunshine. He was her cat for 18 years and it broke her heart that she wasn't there. I tried comforting her with the fact, that I was there, and told him about all of the people by name who have loved him and always will. Sunshine licked my hand when I talked about the Rainbow Bridge and seeing his real brother Stormy. Pets we love know we are there in spirit as well.
Please forgive yourself
by: Anonymous

It's OK. Please don't hurt yourself more - I'm sure you hurt enough already. Sneezer loved you and needs you to feel happy again. Our pets give such unconditional love, and when we hurt, they seem to know it. I believe Sneezer is out there waiting for you. And I believe she is waiting for you to be to be happy again. Then she can be truly happy again too.
I wasn't There
by: Anonymous

You are not alone. I was at work when my baby died and I had a feeling all day that I should go home to check on her but I didn't. I came home from work to find her gone lying on the living room floor. I have been devastated. I like to think that she went quickly but I will never know. She was only two years old. I felt robbed.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Forgive Yourself
by: Anonymous

Hi,
I just want to add that even if you were there, you would still have questions unanswered, just different ones. I hope one day you can put your guilt to rest, every pet owner deserves that peace when their loved one goes.
Sneezer Adores You
by: Margaret

Sneezer adored you, Molly. She still does. Right now, Sneezer is looking down at you from Rainbow Bridge. She knows how VERY MUCH you wanted to be with her. Pets have an incredible sense; she knew you were going to school. She doesn't want you to be sad anymore. Instead, Sneezer wants you to remember all the great times you and her lovingly shared. Your Sweet Sneezer loves you no matter what.

Big HUG - Margaret
I know how you feel
by: Katy

Dear Molly

I just wanted you to know that we aren't all lucky enough to be there when we lose our pets.

My dog was 11 and having treatment for cancer, which we thought was going well, and he had to stay overnight in the vets one day after some treatment.

I saw him that night in the vets and he seemed well but I felt really guilty for having to leave him there. The next morning I got a phone call to say he had had a heart attack that morning and died.

I felt just like you do, and wondered myself if he had felt betrayed that I had left him at the vets on his own, and as he died of natural causes I also wondered if he had just 'given up' believing that I had abandoned him.

I think your parents were probably trying to protect you, but I think they made a mistake and it wasn't really the right thing to do because it's left you feeling the way you do and has just made your grief harder to bear.

But I just wanted you to know that you are not alone in this, many of us for a whole variety of reasons cannot be there in our pet's last moments, but they know we love them, even if we can't be there at that moment, because they have shared a lifetime of love with us.

Katy

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