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'Gabrielle & Alfie'

Goodbye Darling Alfie

Dec 12, 2013

by Gabrielle
(Scotland)

Last night Alfie was on my bed, for the last time. We telephoned the vet regarding his breathing which was laboured. He said the steroids were wearing off and he needed a second dose.

He drank copiously this morning but did not eat and we decided that he needed relief and permanent rest. We decided to take him to the local vet which is only a 10 minute drive.

My hear is broken. I held him in my arms after the event. He was still warm and I closed his eyes and he looked peaceful and sleeping normally. I needed to do this to try to erase the painful sight of his distress.

I was quite angry as the vet said not only had he the mouth growth but also a large growth in his abdomen, so whatever we did would not help. All the homeopathy and herbal remedies could not cope.

A warning for the future, vets are not very good. Had there been a holistic vet in the area, that would have been my choice. I may be raging because I am so unhappy, but if you have insurance perhaps the vets sell you treatment that is useless. I hope I can get over the bitterness.

Why did my darling Alfie never show any sign of this terrible disease before now. He was very very active for his 8+ years and was catching mice and voles until 2 weeks before the end.

I feel sick whenever I think of what he has endured. As I type this I miss him terribly as usually when he hears the keys click he is in here and up on the keyboard. I've discovered more about how the computer works by him accidentally hitting the keys than I ever learned from the book.

Wonderful friend, I so loved him - and I can't even cry, my grief is beyond that.


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Sorry
by: Pam

I am so sorry for your loss. Some people just don't understand how much our pets mean to us, they are our children. At least you were honored to have that much time with your baby. Again, I am so sorry.

A Prayer to console you
by: Anonymous

Dear Lord, please open your gates and call St. Francis to come escort this beloved companion
across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign him a place of honor,
for he has been a faithful servant
and has always done his best to please me.

Bless the hands that sent him to you Father,
for they did so in love and compassion,
freeing him from pain and suffering.

Father, grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss. Instead, help me remember the details of his life with the love he has shown me.
And grant me the courage to honor him
by sharing those memories with others.

Lord, let him remember me as well
and let him know that I will always love him.
And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise, please allow him to accompany those
who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord, for the gift of his
companionship and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord,for granting me
the strength to give him to you now.

Amen.

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