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'Diana & Leya'

About Leya

Leya the most beautiful, perfect, Doberman girl. Sweet, loving nature. Always the most gentle, loving, soul. My best friend in all the world.

When did you lose Leya?

I lost Leya August 17th, 2010

At which stage of pet loss grief do you feel you are currently at?

I am still devastated, shocked, and can't believe she is really gone.

My heart is broken and I don't think it will ever heal. The pain is the same now as the first day without her.

Diana and Leya's Story so far

We had Leya for 12 years. She was the most beautiful, perfect dog. On August 12, 2010, she suddenly collapsed and couldn't walk. She was diabetic and we thought there was some problem related to that. But after checking her blood glucose we realized it wasn't that. So we then thought maybe she had had a stroke.

We had the vet come to the house (he wasn't her vet, but another from the same office). He seemed to think we should not put her through any tests, but just consider "letting her go", in other words euthanize her. I was horrified and couldn't think about doing that. But after a few days of her laying there and not being able to get up, I decided to take her to a neurologist.

He did x-rays and blood tests and found out she had an enlarged heart and fluid in her lungs and was not getting enough oxygen in her system. They put her on oxygen support. The clinic where she was at this point was not close to our home, and even though we wanted to take her home so she could spend her last moments there where she was comfortable, we couldn't take her home as we had no way to continue the oxygen for her. We had to make the unthinkable decision to end her suffering there where we were.

We were with her until the very end, but now that she is gone, I am full of self doubt. I feel like I made the worst mistake, and even though I know I can't change anything, I am just sick and feeling so guilty about it. I loved her more than anything in this world, and I feel like I let her down. I feel like I missed something that we could have done to save her. I miss her so much, and even after 4 months, I think of her every minute, and cry often throughout the day, even when at work.

At this point, I don't know how I can go on without her. I'm just lost and nothing means anything without her.

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Mother's Day

May 10, 2012

 
Dear Leya, my beautiful girl... Mother's Day is coming up on Sunday, and whenever I think of being a mother, I always think of you, my most precious …

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Dec 17, 2011

 
Leya, my precious girl.. Today is the 17th again, and even though I miss you so much every day, the 17th is particularly hard as it was the 17th when …

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14 Months Later

October 17, 2011

 
Hello my precious Girl Leya, I'm sorry I haven't written for a while now, but please know that doesn't mean I'm not still thinking of you and missing …

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August 17th - One Year Ago

August 17, 2011

 
My beautiful Leya Today is August 17th, and it was one year ago today that you had to leave me. I know you didn't want to go. I made that decision, …

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The 17th Again.....

July 17, 2011

 
Leya my sweet baby, The 17th has rolled around again. Although the sadness of losing you seems neverending, the months continue to go by. Today marks …

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Birthday Wishes To The Bridge

Jul 7, 2011

 
Leya, my sweet baby girl, July 8th is your birthday, you would have been 13 this year. I know it isn't reasonable to wish that a Dobie would live forever, …

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10 Months Today Without You Leya

June 17, 2011

 
Leya, my sweet baby, Today is 10 months since you had to leave. It has been a very long hard lonely 10 months. I still miss you more than ever. I still …

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Leya - 7 Months Later

Mar 17, 2011

 
My beautiful special girl Today is the 17th, and it is 7 months since that horrible day that I lost you. 7 months, and it seems like just yesterday. …

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Your Little Hippo

Jan 31, 2011

 
My precious Leya, It has been over 5 months and the pain is still the same as the day I lost you. I thought somehow it would get better with time, but …

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First Christmas Without You Leya

January 4, 2010

 
Leya, my precious girl, The Christmas holidays are finally over, my first since losing you. It was so difficult to do all I had to do. Just going through …

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Christmas Eve Without Leya

December 24, 2010

 
My precious Puppy, My first thoughts when I woke up today were as always of you and how much I love and miss you. I can't seem to stop crying. It …

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Princess

April 13, 2012

 
To Beautiful Leya, I am sure you had a wonderful Easter, visiting your loving Mom on the special Holiday. Although you always watch over your Mom and …

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Bud's Arrival

Feb 15, 2012

 
Beautiful Leya, It really seems like I've known you all of your life on earth, you are the best girl anyone could ever ask for and are loved by us …

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9 Months Without You

Tuesday May 17, 2011

 
My Angel Leya Today marks 9 months since the day you had to leave. I think of you every minute of every day, yet on the 17th it always seems harder …

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Mother's Day Without My Baby Girl

May 5, 2011

 
Leya, my happy, sweet girl... Mother's Day is coming up this weekend, the first since you had to leave. I think you and Charlie have big plans to spend …

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Easter Without You

April 24, 2011

 
Leya, my precious girl... Today was my first Easter without you. I miss you so much, just like every day since you had to leave. I tried to keep busy, …

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Leya and Charlie

Jan 12, 2011

 
My beautiful girl, How I miss you. Yesterday was another hard day to get through. It seemed that I cried all day. I just wanted to scream to the heavens …

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My Precious Puppy, I Miss You

December 23, 2010

 
Leya, my special girl. It's 10:30 a.m. and I've been crying since I woke up at 6. Some days are worse than others, although all are hard. None have been …

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First Christmas Without You Leya....

December 22, 2010

 
My precious Leya, Christmas is approaching so quickly and I want to just get into bed and sleep until it's over. Daddy finally put the tree up, even …

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December 21, 2010

 
My precious Leya. I have written a tribute to you here on this site, and I am starting a diary so that I can talk to you. I have told everyone on …

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