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'Benji & Cinnamon'

About Cinnamon

Cinnamon was a beautiful Shetland sheepdog mix. She was yellow in color with some merle markings on her face and ears. Cinnamon was a very sweet dog. She loved everyone and was always excited to meet new people. She was very intelligent, too.

When did you lose Cinnamon?

Cinnamon passed away on January 29th, 2011. Her death was so sudden, that it's shook everyone up. When we got home that day, she was already almost gone and in shock. Moving her would have put her in greater shock. We did the best we could to make her last minutes on Earth comfortable, though.

At which stage of pet loss grief do you feel you are currently at?

Currently, I am somewhere between denial and anger. There are sometimes when I just feel so numb and unsure of what happened. I'll stop and look for her, wondering where she went. Then, there are others, where I just feel so angry.

Benji and Cinnamon's Story so far

We brought Cinnamon home as a very tiny puppy and raised her as best as we knew how. Cinnamon grew into a beautiful dog and though she was always my dog before anyone else's, she was still the perfect family dog. She saw me grow from a spoiled teenager into the adult that I am today and I saw her grow from a sweet puppy into an even sweeter dog.

We're not completely sure how Cinnamon got sick, but we do have an idea. I pray that our idea isn't true, because we searched our house high and low and found nothing she could have gotten into inside. I can't imagine anyone hateful enough to take my best friend from me. Cinnamon passed away beside me. Her heart failed, and she was gone. Daily life so far has been hard. I've had trouble getting back into the swing of things, but I'm trying, because I know that's what my Moo Moo would want.

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One Last Time

May 21, 2012

It's been a long time since I've updated this diary. I suppose life really does go on, doesn't it? After you left, everything seemed surreal. You were …

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Sep 24, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I think this stage is called acceptance. It still hurts sometimes and I still cry for you sometimes but now, sometimes, late at night …

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The Hole You Left

June 22, 2011

Dear Cinnamon, I thought about you again today. I've been thinking about you a lot this past week. I keep wondering if this feeling that something is …

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I Miss You

May 24, 2011

I miss the way you used to tease me with your toys. The way you'd gather your favorite squeaker from your basket, run to me as if you wanted to play, …

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A New Stage

April 29, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I know I just wrote an entry for this diary a few days ago, but I feel as if writing again might help me. I'm not sure, though. Things …

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Still Thinking of You

April 20, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I know it seems clich√© asking this, but does it ever get easier? I admit, for a while there, I was trying to hold the pain in. I wanted …

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The Grieving Still Goes On...

Feb 22, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I've still been thinking about you a lot. We had to take Lilo to the vet today and when we got there, it was hard. They ask about …

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Hard Days

Feb 10, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, Today was a hard one. I'm not even sure which stage of grieving I'm in any more. Some days, I just feel so numb. And others... I just …

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My Angel

Feb 7, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I will never forget that look in your eyes every time you met someone knew or came across something you'd never seen before. You …

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The Empty Holidays

Dec 27, 2011

My first Christmas without you. It wasn't easy. In my search for stockings for the dogs, the cat, and the rodents (more on them in a minute), I came across …

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Aug 27, 2011

Cinnamon, seven months ago (almost to the date) you left this world quite abruptly. I was shaken up. No one had expected it. We thought you had more time, …

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The Sister's New Pomeranian

July 25, 2011

My sister has a Pomeranian now, Cinnamon. He is by no means my dog, and he doesn't live here, but I puppy sit for him every now and again. He's this little …

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May 14, 2011

I did it, Cinnamon. I graduated. As I walked across that stage, I remembered how I decided to go back to school for my dogs. I wanted to give you so much …

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Too Clean

May 6, 2011

The carpet is too clean. When you were here with us, we had to clean the floors once a week. It didn't matter how often we brushed and bathed you, the …

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Happy Easter

April 26, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, I set up a memorial website for you yesterday. It was hard to do, and I shed a lot of tears while doing it, but it truly helped me. …

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Getting By

Mar 23, 2011

It's been a while since I've updated, but life has been hectic. Still, even through the hustle and bustle of life, I have been thinking of you, Cinnamon. …

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The Pain Thunder Brings

Mar 1, 2011

Dearest Cinnamon, We had our first thunderstorm today since you left our lives. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard. I hadn't cried in a few days, …

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